I know it’s been a long while. Just thought I’d jump in where I am, rather than trying to catch up.
Came across this today, and it was just what I needed to hear. Thought maybe some of you needed to hear it as well. The anger I feel when my body isn’t functioning the way it is *supposed* to, is intense, it’s absolutely hateful and unfair. I can only recognize this and gain a healthy perspective by asking myself how I would advise a friend that was suffering with chronic illness, because well… these things with me can be quite the double standard, as I tend to have a rather abusive relationship with myself, and would never treat anyone else that way. I know (intellectually), that it makes things worse when I dish out negative self talk, self sabotage, etc, however, it is so deeply engrained as my “go to” response to feeling poorly, that changing this habit is like turning the Titanic. One of my goals in 2015 is to treat myself with respect in this regard, and take better care of myself. In order to do this, I will have to work on forgiving my body for not doing what it’s supposed to, acknowledge that it is suffering, and come to some sort of peaceful relationship. Not going to be easy, but I will persist! Hope this encourages you to do the same.